How To Love God With Half of Your Heart

Loving God With Half Of Your Heart

I’ve heard that Jesus died on the cross because we can’t keep HIS commands. The greatest command is to love the LORD with all your heart, mind, soul, and strength (Deut. 6:5). When people say that Jesus died so we don’t have to follow HIS law anymore, they are saying that we don’t have to love HIM with all our hearts. They say the law was fulfilled by HIS sacrifice. The only part of the law that Jesus fulfilled was the part where it delivers us from death. The wages of sin is death (Romans 6:23). We have now been given eternal life and that means that we will be resurrected from the grave as Jesus was resurrected from the grave (Romans 6:5). I’ve heard that we don’t have to observe the LORD’s feasts because Jesus fulfilled the law. When you love the LORD with all your heart, you observe The Feast of Unleavened Bread which has everything to do with Christ instead of Easter which has everything to do with Paganism. You can’t fit a square peg into a round hole. It just doesn’t fit. You can’t worship the God of Israel however you want. The Bible is HIS instructions that we are supposed to follow. If you follow Jesus Christ then you do what HE did (1 John 2:6).

“These people draweth nigh unto me with their mouth, and honoureth me with their lips; but their heart is far from me. But in vain they do worship me, teaching for doctrines the commandments of men.” Matthew 15:8-9

The LORD spoke to me about HIS people worshipping HIM with only half of their hearts. Psalm 103 is about blessing the LORD with everything you have because of HIS mercies, HIS power, HIS greatness, HIS covenant, and HIS statutes.

Psalm 103:10 “He hath not dealt with us after our sins, nor rewarded us according to our iniquities.”

Psalm 66 is about giving to the LORD because of HIS mercy when we are put through the fire, when HE tests us with fire, when we suffer, when we are afflicted, and when we are in trouble. Our gratitude is sky high when HE delivers us and has mercy on us. You can’t live your life giving only half of your heart to the LORD. You can’t have your fun, do whatever you want to do, worship HIM however you see fit to worship HIM, and you can’t give the LORD whatever is left over.

The LORD will speak to us through personal experiences. He has a heart to heart talk with us. One way we learn is to actually walk it out whether it takes months or even years to understand. I told the LORD that if HE lets me marry this man whom I love, then I will do whatever HE wants me to do. I am going through heartbreak and I've been praying and fasting for over a year now for this one thing. It is so painful because the LORD is showing me how HE feels when HIS children treat HIM a certain way. They don't talk to HIM, they ignore HIM, and they only talk to HIM when they want something. HIS love for us is a kind of passion that we have never known, no matter how much we love someone, he loves us MORE! Even so, HIS children would rather be distant. Those people will be destroyed. Furthermore, because I sinned with this man, the LORD has shown me how HE treats those who sin against HIM. We kissed, held hands, and made out late one night and since then I have been learning how the LORD cuts off those who disobey HIM. When they do not turn from their evil ways, they are cast away. The LORD does not hear them. HE isn’t going to wait forever for you to repent. There will be a day when HE says to those who are disobedient to depart from HIM. HE will not know them because they didn’t follow HIS law (Matthew 7:23). However, I have faith that my prayers and my fastings have been heard as I have repented from the evil that I committed. Impurity is the same as death. HE has made me clean and my actions have not gone unpunished. During this suffering, the fruits of the Spirit are being cultivated inside of me: Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, and Faithfulness. I am learning to endure and to persevere.

Isaiah 66 is important because it talks about what will happen to those who half-heartedly worship the LORD. The following is what I gathered from it. The LORD’s judgment brings horror to all mankind. We see their dead bodies. All mankind will worship the LORD from Sabbath to Sabbath and from New Moon to New Moon. The Christian churches do not do this yet. We are HIS priests and Levites. The LORD will send those who survive to the places that have not heard of HIS fame or seen HIS glory. Those who follow pastors and leaders, not obeying God’s law and eating pigs and other unclean animals will be destroyed. HIS fire will be poured out on HIS enemies like never before. Jerusalem will comfort us. We are little babies that will be breastfed at the breast of Jerusalem, the Holy City, the Bride of Christ.

We will flourish and grow like the grass. Those who say that they want to see your joy when you glorify the LORD will be put to shame because of the LORD’s wrath. Glorifying the LORD doesn’t always bring smiles. There is suffering involved. These are the churches who preach hyper-grace and have kicked me out for dancing with worship flags. The LORD is not in them. They only preach what you want to hear. The LORD’s enemies ignore HIM, they don’t talk to HIM, and they only go to HIM when they want something. They don’t do what the LORD wants them to do, so HE chooses their punishment. The enemies of the LORD worship HIM however, they want to worship HIM instead of doing what the LORD delights in. An example of this would be the Hebrew Roots movement when they preach on Torah Portions instead of what the Holy Spirit is saying to them. They practice Jewish traditions instead of walking in the Spirit. This is what has caused some who were in the Hebrew Roots movement to convert to Judaism. Isaiah 66 talks about those who exalt animals instead of giving what is required and burning incense to God as if HE is an idol. Be humble, submissive in spirit, and tremble at HIS word. HE made all things and by HIS hand everything came into being. HE created existence. What house, what temple, what place can the LORD dwell in when the Earth is HIS footstool? Heaven is HIS throne.

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Consequences

Consequences

Most Christians think that as soon as they call upon the name of Jesus Christ, there isn’t any consequences for the evil things they have done. We are saved from the death that breaking the law brings because we no longer break the law of God but obey Him because He pierced our hearts with eternal life. How can you thank Him enough? Christians are going through things and they have no idea why. Someone I know almost died from a brain aneurysm that had a 90% chance of exploding.

The mercy of God allowed her to get into a car accident and consequently go to the doctor for a check-up. That’s when they found it. She also had a brain fistula. Needless to say, she wasn’t in good shape and she could go at any moment. She was literally a walking ticking time bomb. When I prayed and fasted for her to be healed supernaturally, Jesus Christ visited me in a vision and told me that she had done some evil things in her life and therefore Jesus wasn't going to heal her supernaturally.

Whether we like it or not, there are consequences for our actions, even if we claim to be followers of Jesus Christ. The truth is, many are still sinning.

“But it shall come to pass, if thou wilt not hearken unto the voice of the LORD thy God, to observe to do all his commandments and his statutes which I command thee this day; that all these curses shall come upon thee, and overtake thee:” Deuteronomy 28:15

God curses us when we disobey Him, whether we call ourselves Christian or not.

One of my consequences for my actions is being alienated from my children. Being estranged from your children is actually a curse listed in the Bible for disobeying. I have accepted my punishment for being Atheist. I attempted to alienate God from His children and He alienated me from mine.

It took me years to understand it. It wasn’t until I had been sealed with the Holy Spirit for almost 2 years that I finally understood. At that time, I had been estranged from my children for 7 years.

“Thy sons and thy daughters shall be given unto another people, and thine eyes shall look, and fail with longing for them all the day long: and there shall be no might in thine hand.” Deuteronomy 28:32

“Thou shalt beget sons and daughters, but thou shalt not enjoy them; for they shall go into captivity.” Deuteronomy 28:41

When the children of God, the children of Israel, the bride of Christ, Jerusalem becomes unclean, God cleanses her/us. How does the Good Father treat His rebellious and wicked children? Lamentations agrees with Deuteronomy in that Zion/Jerusalem becomes lonely and desolate for their disobedience. The writer of Lamentations pleads with the reader to hear what happened to him when he disobeyed God.

“The LORD is righteous; for I have rebelled against his commandment: hear, I pray you, all people, and behold my sorrow: my virgins and my young men are gone into captivity.” Lamentations 1:18

If you return to the Lord your God today, with all your heart, soul, and strength, realizing that love is obedience to God, then this is what Jesus Christ says He will do:

“And it shall come to pass, when all these things are come upon thee, the blessing and the curse, which I have set before thee, and thou shalt call them to mind among all the nations, whither the Lord thy God hath driven thee, And shalt return unto the Lord thy God, and shalt obey his voice according to all that I command thee this day, thou and thy children, with all thine heart, and with all thy soul; That then the Lord thy God will turn thy captivity, and have compassion upon thee, and will return and gather thee from all the nations, whither the Lord thy God hath scattered thee. If any of thine be driven out unto the outmost parts of heaven, from thence will the Lord thy God gather thee, and from thence will he fetch thee: And the Lord thy God will bring thee into the land which thy fathers possessed, and thou shalt possess it; and he will do thee good, and multiply thee above thy fathers. And the Lord thy God will circumcise thine heart, and the heart of thy seed, to love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, that thou mayest live. And the Lord thy God will put all these curses upon thine enemies, and on them that hate thee, which persecuted thee. And thou shalt return and obey the voice of the Lord, and do all his commandments which I command thee this day. And the Lord thy God will make thee plenteous in every work of thine hand, in the fruit of thy body, and in the fruit of thy cattle, and in the fruit of thy land, for good: for the Lord will again rejoice over thee for good, as he rejoiced over thy fathers: If thou shalt hearken unto the voice of the Lord thy God, to keep his commandments and his statutes which are written in this book of the law, and if thou turn unto the Lord thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul. For this commandment which I command thee this day, it is not hidden from thee, neither is it far off. It is not in heaven, that thou shouldest say, Who shall go up for us to heaven, and bring it unto us, that we may hear it, and do it? Neither is it beyond the sea, that thou shouldest say, Who shall go over the sea for us, and bring it unto us, that we may hear it, and do it? But the word is very nigh unto thee, in thy mouth, and in thy heart, that thou mayest do it. See, I have set before thee this day life and good, and death and evil; In that I command thee this day to love the Lord thy God, to walk in his ways, and to keep his commandments and his statutes and his judgments, that thou mayest live and multiply: and the Lord thy God shall bless thee in the land whither thou goest to possess it. But if thine heart turn away, so that thou wilt not hear, but shalt be drawn away, and worship other gods, and serve them; I denounce unto you this day, that ye shall surely perish, and that ye shall not prolong your days upon the land, whither thou passest over Jordan to go to possess it. I call heaven and earth to record this day against you, that I have set before you life and death, blessing and cursing: therefore choose life, that both thou and thy seed may live: That thou mayest love the Lord thy God, and that thou mayest obey his voice, and that thou mayest cleave unto him: for he is thy life, and the length of thy days: that thou mayest dwell in the land which the Lord sware unto thy fathers, to Abraham, to Isaac, and to Jacob, to give them.” Deuteronomy 30

In 1 Corinthians, the church thought that they could sleep with their step-parents, worship at the Greek temple, and sleep with prostitutes because Jesus Christ died for all their sins. They were under God’s grace now. They thought that that Jesus Christ nailed God’s law up on the cross when He died. Paul responds by saying that they were completely and utterly wrong. They couldn’t have been more incorrect. Paul went on to explain that our bodies no longer belong to us but to Christ.

“What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?” 1 Corinthians 6:19

Even our private parts are instruments of righteousness.

“Neither yield ye your members as instruments of unrighteousness unto sin: but yield yourselves unto God, as those that are alive from the dead, and your members as instruments of righteousness unto God.” Romans 6:13

In terms of idolatry, most Christians think that just because they go to a Christian church that they don’t participate in idolatry. It can still be idolatry even if it isn’t a carved image. 1 Samuel 15:23 describes idolatry as being stubborn in not obeying God and Colossians 3:5 explains how giving in to our earthly nature is also idolatry.

“Mortify therefore your members which are upon the earth; fornication, uncleanness, inordinate affection, evil concupiscence, and covetousness, which is idolatry:” Colossians 3:5

Concupiscence means to have a strong sexual desire or lust. No one said it was easy. Do you think it was easy when Jesus Christ crucified His flesh? If you are around people who don’t have the Holy Spirit, it will be difficult for you to remain righteous if you are a new born. Unless you are preaching the gospel to the unsaved, I wouldn’t recommend being friends with anyone who lives in sin. They shouldn’t want to be friends with you anyway because you can’t stop talking about the God of Israel.

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Prophecy And Israel

The gospel is from Genesis to Revelation. We need to tell the Jews that they are in rebellion. They came back to the commands but not Jesus Christ so they are in rebellion. We need to tell Christians that we love them but they are in a hybrid religion. They came back to Jesus Christ but not the commands. Pray in the Spirit, press in the Spirit.  Listen for His instructions. If you just wait for confirmation instead of knowing His voice, you are blind. Leave when you don’t know where you are going. If you observed the Sabbath but you didn’t hear from The Father then you broke the Sabbath. Who care how you feel about church service? It’s not about you it’s about hearing from God. It’s not about your emotion. “I’ve posted watchmen on your walls Jerusalem and they will never be silent day or night.” Get into prophetic alignment with Israel.

Has God Ever Changed His Mind?

Has God Ever Changed His Mind?

“And God saw their works, that they turned from their evil way; and God repented of the evil, that he had said that he would do unto them; and he did it not.” Jonah 3:10

“And the LORD repented of the evil which he thought to do unto his people.” Exodus 32:14

“And God sent an angel unto Jerusalem to destroy it: and as he was destroying, the LORD beheld, and he repented him of the evil, and said to the angel that destroyed, It is enough, stay now thine hand. And the angel of the LORD stood by the threshing floor of Ornan the Jebusite.” 1 Chronicles 21:15

“If that nation, against whom I have pronounced, turn from their evil, I will repent of the evil that I thought to do unto them.” Jeremiah 18:8

“The LORD repented for this: It shall not be, saith the LORD.” Amos 7:3

“The LORD repented for this: This also shall not be, saith the Lord GOD.” Amos 7:6

I keep seeing that the Lord repented. I didn’t know that the Lord ever repented for doing something. This word in Hebrew means to be sorry, to appease, to console, to give rest, have compassion, to have pity, regret, relent, and to relieve (Strong’s Hebrew 5162). The first time it is ever used is in Genesis 5:29. This verse talks about Noah’s name and why Lamech chose Noah.

“And he called his name Noah, saying, This same shall comfort us concerning our work and toil of our hands, because of the ground which the LORD hath cursed.” Genesis 5:29

Let’s think about this scripture. Noah built an ark because the Lord flooded the Earth. Is that how Noah relieved them of the work and toil of their hands? The ground is cursed because of our disobedience. We have to work hard for our food. How did Noah comfort us concerning this issue?

Noah’s name means to rest (Strong’s Hebrew 5117). The first time this word is used is in Genesis 8:4 where it talks about how the ark rested on a mountain, specifically on the 17th day of the 7th month.

“And the ark rested in the seventh month, on the seventeenth day of the month, upon the mountains of Ararat.” Genesis 8:4

This is during the Feast of Tabernacles. The Lord tabernacles among us and we take refuge in Him. The only righteous family was in the ark, on a mountain, during the Feast of Tabernacles. Furthermore, and this is just a note, God didn’t say that He wasn’t going to destroy the Earth again. He said He wasn’t going to do it with water next time.

I’m guessing that Mt. Ararat was much higher in the days of Noah. Mt. Ararat is located in Armenia. Armenia is located between the Black Sea and Caspian Sea. Turkey, Syria, Iraq, and Iran are underneath it and Georgia, Russia, and Azerbaijan are above it.

The fact remains that physically, we are still toiling for our food, and the only rest we get is the Lord’s rest on the Sabbath. When the ark rested on the mountain, God put a rainbow up in the sky as a promise that He would never harm the Earth again with water. He always keeps His promises and that includes His promises to us if we obey Him. If we repent of our evil ways, He will change His mind. If we turn from our wicked ways, which is breaking His commands, He will not destroy us like He said He would. This is the only time God ever changes His mind. Furthermore, John saw a rainbow around His Throne. The rainbow symbolizes His covenant with us.

Use God’s covenant with us as a guardrail. It keeps us from falling over the cliff. What are some of God’s promises if we obey Him? Use it as a fence.

“If ye walk in my statutes, and keep my commandments, and do them; Then I will give you rain in due season, and the land shall yield her increase, and the trees of the field shall yield their fruit. And your threshing shall reach unto the vintage, and the vintage shall reach unto the sowing time: and ye shall eat your bread to the full, and dwell in your land safely. And I will give peace in the land, and ye shall lie down, and none shall make you afraid: and I will rid evil beasts out of the land, neither shall the sword go through your land. And ye shall chase your enemies, and they shall fall before you by the sword. And five of you shall chase an hundred, and an hundred of you shall put ten thousand to flight: and your enemies shall fall before you by the sword. For I will have respect unto you, and make you fruitful, and multiply you, and establish my covenant with you. And ye shall eat old store, and bring forth the old because of the new. And I set my tabernacle among you: and my soul shall not abhor you. And I will walk among you, and will be your God, and ye shall be my people. I am the Lord your God, which brought you forth out of the land of Egypt, that ye should not be their bondmen; and I have broken the bands of your yoke, and made you go upright.” Leviticus 26:3-13

God makes it pretty simple. What happens if we don’t do what He says? There’s a lot more curses. Get ready.

“But if ye will not hearken unto me, and will not do all these commandments; And if ye shall despise my statutes, or if your soul abhor my judgments, so that ye will not do all my commandments, but that ye break my covenant: I also will do this unto you; I will even appoint over you terror, consumption, and the burning ague, that shall consume the eyes, and cause sorrow of heart: and ye shall sow your seed in vain, for your enemies shall eat it. And I will set my face against you, and ye shall be slain before your enemies: they that hate you shall reign over you; and ye shall flee when none pursueth you. And if ye will not yet for all this hearken unto me, then I will punish you seven times more for your sins. And I will break the pride of your power; and I will make your heaven as iron, and your earth as brass: And your strength shall be spent in vain: for your land shall not yield her increase, neither shall the trees of the land yield their fruits. And if ye walk contrary unto me, and will not hearken unto me; I will bring seven times more plagues upon you according to your sins. I will also send wild beasts among you, which shall rob you of your children, and destroy your cattle, and make you few in number; and your highways shall be desolate. And if ye will not be reformed by me by these things, but will walk contrary unto me; Then will I also walk contrary unto you, and will punish you yet seven times for your sins. And I will bring a sword upon you, that shall avenge the quarrel of my covenant: and when ye are gathered together within your cities, I will send the pestilence among you; and ye shall be delivered into the hand of the enemy. And when I have broken the staff of your bread, ten women shall bake your bread in one oven, and they shall deliver you your bread again by weight: and ye shall eat, and not be satisfied. And if ye will not for all this hearken unto me, but walk contrary unto me; Then I will walk contrary unto you also in fury; and I, even I, will chastise you seven times for your sins. And ye shall eat the flesh of your sons, and the flesh of your daughters shall ye eat. And I will destroy your high places, and cut down your images, and cast your carcasses upon the carcasses of your idols, and my soul shall abhor you. And I will make your cities waste, and bring your sanctuaries unto desolation, and I will not smell the savour of your sweet odours. And I will bring the land into desolation: and your enemies which dwell therein shall be astonished at it. And I will scatter you among the heathen, and will draw out a sword after you: and your land shall be desolate, and your cities waste. Then shall the land enjoy her sabbaths, as long as it lieth desolate, and ye be in your enemies' land; even then shall the land rest, and enjoy her sabbaths. As long as it lieth desolate it shall rest; because it did not rest in your sabbaths, when ye dwelt upon it. And upon them that are left alive of you I will send a faintness into their hearts in the lands of their enemies; and the sound of a shaken leaf shall chase them; and they shall flee, as fleeing from a sword; and they shall fall when none pursueth. And they shall fall one upon another, as it were before a sword, when none pursueth: and ye shall have no power to stand before your enemies. And ye shall perish among the heathen, and the land of your enemies shall eat you up. And they that are left of you shall pine away in their iniquity in your enemies' lands; and also in the iniquities of their fathers shall they pine away with them.” Leviticus 26:14-39

If you abhorred the commands of God and walked contrary to Him but you repent, change your mind, and accept your punishment for not obeying in the past, then God will remember you and the covenant which He made with Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. You will still be in the land of your enemies but God will not cast you away.

“If they shall confess their iniquity, and the iniquity of their fathers, with their trespass which they trespassed against me, and that also they have walked contrary unto me; And that I also have walked contrary unto them, and have brought them into the land of their enemies; if then their uncircumcised hearts be humbled, and they then accept of the punishment of their iniquity: Then will I remember my covenant with Jacob, and also my covenant with Isaac, and also my covenant with Abraham will I remember; and I will remember the land. The land also shall be left of them, and shall enjoy her sabbaths, while she lieth desolate without them: and they shall accept of the punishment of their iniquity: because, even because they despised my judgments, and because their soul abhorred my statutes. And yet for all that, when they be in the land of their enemies, I will not cast them away, neither will I abhor them, to destroy them utterly, and to break my covenant with them: for I am the Lord their God. But I will for their sakes remember the covenant of their ancestors, whom I brought forth out of the land of Egypt in the sight of the heathen, that I might be their God: I am the Lord. These are the statutes and judgments and laws, which the Lord made between him and the children of Israel in mount Sinai by the hand of Moses.” Leviticus 26:40-46

Basically, if you change your mind, then God will change His too.

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A Call To Action

He Has The Whole Universe In His Hands

The moon is so big, yellow, and beautiful on the Horizon, early in the morning, when it’s full. It’s a reminder that we are just floating a vast, hostile Universe, when we are so fragile. But, we are protected by God. He has everything in His mighty hands. He is in control. So many disasters could befall us, but they don’t. ~Darya Hupp

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My Latest Disturbing Dream

I was in a cafe called Joel.

Then

Me and a group of people were going room to room with flashlights looking for hidden traps and bombs. I was fearless. Sometimes we would come across booby traps and someone would blow up.

Then I saw someone in the stocks crying and someone else with his head in the wall while he was getting his lips sewn together with a bomb. He looked like Robert DeNiro. Both of these men were crying. They didn’t want to die. Then I was tied to the man with the bomb on his lips in a way that if they let me go, the bomb would go off.

The group with the flashlights came in and I was able to talk so I said, “Don’t come over here, there’s a bomb!” The group looked at the situation and they could have just let us stay there like that. So I said, “Please, God just introduced me to a man, finally, and it’s been years.”

Just then, someone cut the cord and I pushed myself far away. The blast that happened next killed the man who looked like Robert DeNiro. I hugged the woman who was next to me.

After that, I was too scared to go into any more rooms. But I looked down the hallway and there was the enemy leading a group of people wearing green, like the scrubs for Veterinary Assisting at Westech College, single file down the hall.

Immediately, I went into the room and risked my life to go behind the door when there could have been a bomb there. I closed the door and told everyone that the enemy was coming. They had people walking in a line with their hands up.

A black woman came over to the closed door and Jury, from Westech, said to open the door. I couldn’t believe I was hearing her voice. She sounded playful. And the black woman on my side said, “If you give me 99 cents.”

I was in a van with an old woman and some other people. My mom was sitting in the back seat. The old woman leaned over to me and said, “She’s rude.” referring to my mother.

I got out of the van and walked into a place. There I saw a whole family with light blue hair. The little girl had light blue hair and rainbow. I loved it! They left and I was alone with one of the women of the family who had the colored hair. I told her how much I loved it and if she thought it would look good on me. I took a little bit of my hair to compare it to hers and BEHOLD, my hair was a bright blue! I told her how the old lady said that my mom was rude. She replied, “I bet you liked that.”

I went into this room where there was like a Christian concert going on but some of the people who called themselves Christian were not very nice, they were cursing and fighting with each other.  

After the church service, I got up to leave and Joel was there. He asked if I wanted to go to the mall with him just to have a drink. I looked at the time and it was 9:17 PM. I told him that I get up really early so it’s too late. He insisted and I agreed. Then he ignored me and went to go talk to some people, leaving me behind, alone. So I went up to him and said, “We can just walk there.” He ignored me still so I was thinking about walking there myself.

I woke up. I learned that I have a hard time saying, “No.”